I saw the endocrinologist. She diagnosed me with Hashimoto's thyroiditis. But then told me that my test results were not abnormal enough to treat me and that she didn't think my current symptoms are even thyroid related. Despite my statement "I have no expectations" going into the appointment, my hopes were dashed.
I continue on though--what other choice do I really have? The doctor who has been seeing me since I was 5 years old is in my corner, validating my symptoms and fears, struggling to help me. I may see an infectious disease specialist. I will probably have a biopsy of a nodule on my thyroid--ruling out cancer. I will see another endocrinologist on Monday who comes highly, highly recommended. The wait to see her was until November. But God works in mysterious ways; a man in my church is a patient of hers and she agreed to see me since I don't want to stay in America until November.
My heart and body are aching right now--crying out for restoration. So much in this world is broken and hurting. I look at my twin nephews struggling to breathe and sustain their little 2 pound bodies. I think of my friends in Bundibugyo that would be unable to fathom our American medical care, despite its shortfalls. I pray for the team that remains in Bundibugyo, and the teammates who are on their way.
And yet, God continues to amaze me. An older African American woman that I swear was an angel sat across from me yesterday in the lab as I got yet another round of blood testing done. She looked right at me and said, "God's got your back. Ain't nobody else got your back. But he does." Amen.
The words of encouragement you received from that kind lady reminded me of the chorus from a song called "God Has His People."
ReplyDeleteGod has His People,
carefully they are placed,
Where He can use them
to show His love and grace.
God has His people
daily living out their lives.
In simple, subtle ways
they are salt and light.
I know it's not the encouragement and treatment you hoped for ( i am sorry your hopes were dashed) but it seems as though God is moving these doctors and circumstances, orchestrating them for your good and His glory! I will keep praying for faith in the midst of the storm. Read Acts 27 for Paul's encouragement. love you C!
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