Friday, May 4, 2012
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Monday, April 30, 2012
CSB Football Champions!
Monday, April 23, 2012
The Sting of Reality
Coming back to Bundibugyo after some time away usually results in a bit of a slump on return. The post-Kampala funk is nothing new and is not surprising. Leaving a wonderland of restaurants, unlimited internet, well-stocked grocery stores, and anonymity in a crowd to return to a place that is well…none of the above can be hard. Reality has a tendency to slap ya in the face when you come back. It seems like the slap was extra hard this time though.
There were a lot of little annoyances that quickly added up to feeling overwhelmed upon returning home. Opened the back door to the car to unload the mounds of bags and boxes (2 month grocery supply included) and there is a white liquid dripping. Milk. Apparently some of the frozen, bagged milk I had bought had not only thawed but the bag had broken and dripped over everything. Walk in the house. Power is out. Bummer. Deep breath and begin tackling the job of unpacking everything alone (I’ve been spoiled by two great housemates), jamming stuff into the freezer and realizing it just won’t all fit. Look through the pantry and realize a rat is on the loose in the house. A few hours later…rat is located in the office due to scratching coming from under the desk. Don’t have the heart to search it out and bludgeon it to death alone.
Meanwhile, my new neighbor, Truffle the cow, is mooing like the sky is falling down around her. Truth of the matter: she is in heat and apparently cows in heat make a lot of noise. The things I never thought I’d learn on the mission field! All I know is that I’m not thrilled when she moos at 1 am and earplugs don’t drown it out. Power comes on and then the outlets in our house mysteriously stop working. My teammate, Josh, investigates and realizes there is an issue in our electrical box that could result in a fire if not fixed. My power is turned off for safety. I’m exhausted and to what do my fatigued eyes do appear? A gigantic cockroach on the head of my toothbrush.
While all of these things took place over a 48 hour period, you may see why I wasn’t feeling particularly joyful this morning. Rats, spilled milk, electricity (or lack thereof), and cockroaches can all be day-ruiners. But a SMS I received on Saturday morning is probably the real reason for my funk.
Silivano, the 5 year old boy I had referred to Mulago Hospital died on Friday night. I had just visited him on Tuesday since I had been in Kampala. He was clearly sick but I was looking into getting free housing for him and his father while they pursued treatment for his bone marrow failure. I gave him some small gifts and he seemed to particularly like the purple matchbox car. I took a photo of him, with plans to post it here and ask for prayer for him. I had a good talk with his dad and told him my own story of illness and how Silivano had a special place in my heart.
Silivano’s death is another bitter reminder of the brokenness of this world. I am grieving but I’m sure my sadness is a fraction of his parents’. Tonight as I think about it all, I find reasons to be thankful though. I am thankful that this world is not our home; that Silivano is no longer suffering; that one day death will lose its sting. I am thankful that God brought me through cancer so that I would be passionate about advocating for sick kids from Bundibugyo. I am thankful for the gifts that God has blessed me with throughout the past few days: electricity, a quiet evening (free of mooing), ripe mangoes, conversations with friends over sodas, cool mornings, watching a little boy dance in worship at church, 30 Rock and Modern Family, reading the Bible--coffee in hand. I find it easy to question God when slapped in the face with the pain and brokenness of this earth. But finding some things to thank him for is the antidote to the slump tonight.
Monday, March 26, 2012
Finding Silivano
Thursday, March 22, 2012
Mt. Zion
Over the last month or so, I’ve begun to develop a relationship with a local church, Mt. Zion Presbyterian. The church meets in the “inner city” of Nyahuka, our little trading center. Living out here, seemingly in the middle of nowhere, makes it hard to believe that there is such a thing as urban ministry. But, when I visited a few weeks ago on Sunday, I realized it does exist, even in Nyahuka!
The church is located two blocks back from the market and main road. Cutting through an alleyway, the path winds around between people’s compounds and suddenly, a “church” pops up. It isn’t a permanent structure but rather several large sticks propping up some tarps. According to our standards of real estate, this property gets a D- on location. It is surrounded by bars and the scent of urine is heavy in the air. Children with runny noses playing with bottle caps, razor blades, or some other piece of trash hang around the doorway and stare into the church. Drunk men wander in and out. The church’s worship drums compete with blaring stereos.
A local bar
It isn’t a pleasant location. But the work being done here is amazing. This is a fellowship that began with Ugandan effort and is sustained with Ugandan effort. The pastor chose this undesirable place for a church, serving as a missionary to his own people. And the church is having an impact on this community among the bars and brothels. Two prostitutes have come to know Christ as well as a woman that used to sell beer to alcoholics. And two previous alcoholics are now key leaders in the church. Mt. Zion has partnered with other churches in the presbytery to start a seminary to train Ugandans in the Word. They’ve started a women’s savings and loan association, which is a major step in financial development. Women meet weekly to put money into savings and present business plans in the hopes of receiving a loan to be paid back in 30 days.
They’ve also started a primary school—teaching children aged 3 to 7. I have become friends with the woman running the school and have enjoyed stopping by on a few occasions. The “school” also is not a permanent structure but a shelter made of reeds and twine. About 20 kids attend school there. Annette, my friend, showed me the few materials they had for teaching the children—not exactly what most pre-school teachers have to work with. But the kids are learning to count and write and we even managed to sing a rendition of “Head, Shoulders, Knees, and Toes”.
I’m looking forward to attending church there, hopefully more often. As someone who has always been passionate about urban ministry, I figured God just had a sense of humor in sending me to the remote jungle reaches of Uganda. But even here, he has shown me opportunities in the “inner city”. Each step I take in becoming more involved in the church is also coming with a lot of prayer (in part due to reading “When Helping Hurts”). These ministries and the church itself began entirely with Ugandan motivation. I don’t want to be the mzungu that enters in and takes over or even inherit roles of leadership simply because of my skin color. As I go to visit Annette, I don’t plan on bringing 25 coloring books and packets of crayons for the kids. It’d be fun but not very helpful in the long run. As I make plans to start a youth bible study, I want to partner with a Ugandan youth leader. Pray for me as I seek out how I can help in this kingdom work without being paternalistic or creating dependency. And pray for more fruit to grow in these new disciples!
Thursday, March 15, 2012
Webale Kwejuna
Today my twin nephews, Sam and Elias, turn one year old. Even in the short two months I’ve been away, they look so much bigger in photos. I’m told they take a while to warm up to new people and like to crawl around the house together. They’re cruising around furniture which probably looks a little funny since they are still so small but before too long they’ll be running to catch up with big brother, Ethan.
For many reasons, I’ll never forget the day that they were born. In the weeks leading up to their birth, I struggled with being far from home as Rachel was in the hospital and I heard updates from my Mom about her pre-term labor. I was sick and struggling to function here. Eventually the decision was made for me to go back to the U.S. for a month to get good medical care. And the day I flew out of Kampala, I was getting text messages from my brother as he and Rachel were in the OR and the boys were born.
Now, a year later, it is hard to believe all that has happened. Sam and Elias fought hard and they are now chubby, healthy boys celebrating their first birthday. I’m back where I started—in Uganda—after a similar fight for life. It can be overwhelming to try and process all that 12 months have brought. But with each “anniversary” of a big event, I take a moment to think about it and praise God for sustaining me through the past and bringing me to this point.
Today I am thankful for two sweet boys and their perseverance in the fight (as well as their parents’ perseverance!) to survive. Webale kwejuna (thank you for surviving), Sam and Elias! And webale Yesu for bringing yet another anniversary, another reminder of your sustaining love, another opportunity to be thankful for where you’ve placed me today.
Wednesday, March 7, 2012
Out and About (Part 1)
I have spent several days throughout the last week or so in the community. It has been such a blessing to have the energy needed for engaging in cross-cultural friendships. And with a combined 8 months of experience here, I am far from knowing what to expect but slightly more comfortable in these “fish out of water” experiences. And I’ve also been around long enough to have some blossoming friendships!
Last Sunday I had the privilege of being the guest of honor at a church service. My friend, Janet, visited me a week before telling me how she had been so touched by the news of my cancer diagnosis. She had shared with her church and they had all been praying for me last summer. She had even written me a song about trusting God in struggle! Needless to say, I was blown away by her love for me and the prayers of Ugandans I had never met. She invited me to church and I quickly agreed.
The night before church I felt anxious. I’m not sure why exactly. Maybe because I wasn’t sure what to expect other than a really long day on Sunday. Maybe because Janet called and said they were “throwing a party” for me after church and I don’t love being the center of attention. Maybe because the Enemy wanted to distort this blessing and encouragement. Or maybe because living here is like being in a fishbowl. Every move is watched, scrutinized, and commented on merely because of your skin color. Sometimes I hate being “special” and wish I could just blend in. Add onto that the reason for my guest of honor status—cancer—and I was dealing with a lot of complex emotions regarding my “specialness”.
Anyway…I was so thankful that my housemate, Pamela, volunteered to come along for moral support. The day turned out to be fabulous. We spent some time visiting with Janet and her husband, Robert and her adorable little boy, Hannington. And we went to her church, where I was able to give glory to the Lord for healing me and thank the congregation for their many prayers. It was so encouraging to see how God is using my testimony to give hope to others.
The “party” afterwards was low-key and just involved a delicious lunch with some family and friends after church. We laughed and laughed at the cultural differences between Americans and Ugandans and took lots of photos. The highlight of the afternoon: eating my first chicken gizzard.
The gizzard is a sign of honor, bestowed upon the most important guest. Our friends are used to “mzungus” and know that gizzards are not common fare to us. But they offered it and Pamela and I decided to take the plunge together! Of course we had to take some photos to prove it :)
Our day with Janet, Robert, Hannington and friends was an encouragement. I’m so thankful for friends who prayed for me while I was on the other side of the world. And I haven’t laughed so hard in a while!